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Will this dream of mine continue on forever? How can I comprehend what my heart is wanting to tell the world and the fear that comes so easily along with it?
Sharing our past is never an easy thing when it is peppered with seasons of sadness. I fear people will grow tired of my words, my heart, my faith.
How can I begin to explain what sharing my story truly means to me? There was a time when I didn't want anyone to know the rejection I faced, the guilt I felt, or the nights spent on my knees in worry.
I watched my children grow right before my eyes and wasn't able to fully comprehend the miracles in front of me.
Will people judge me for my mistakes? How can I give advice about redemption and truth when most days my hands shake as I type out my very personal experiences one by one?
The doubt and fear cloud my vision and I am smacked with the reality that I may one day be last on the list of blogs to read, stories to share, advice to pass on.
Then I realize this journey is not just about what other people gain from my words. It's about how I am healing, moving on, changing, growing. A year ago I just wanted to be last, to not matter, to disappear.
Not anymore. If I am last on someone's list it's okay.
I'll be forever on the list of the One who has taken me down every road, caught every tear and heard
every laugh. And because of that I will never be last.
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I'm joining Lisa Jo Baker for her weekly five minute prompt on Fridays. The goal is to write for five minutes without editing or caring about typos. We write from our hearts and then publish it for the world to read. Please stop by and enjoy the amazing writings of the beautiful women who take part!
Also Linking up with Faithful Friday Blog Hop
Beautiful again, Sarah. Thank you for sharing!
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Amen...because in the end it doesn't matter does it. I just have to keep telling myself that. No the worlds view...but HIS view!
ReplyDeleteSo good...I worry about that often, too...that maybe people will get tired of my words and my heart. Here's my take on that...when your (my) words reflect Him and what He's done, then they are always worth sharing...for the sake of the person who needs to read them. (And for the record, your blog will never be at the bottom of my list!) :) Hugs and happy Friday, sweet friend!
ReplyDeleteI know whose list I'll be on forever. The One who has taken me down every road and been there to catch every tear. And for that I will never be last. - See more at: http://theredemptiondiary.blogspot.com/2013/08/last.html#.UhbitpK1GgZ
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Thank you Andrea!
ReplyDeleteYes Casey! The world will perish but He will remain forever. I want to be there too!
ReplyDeleteOh Mel, you have such a way of making my heart smile. Love you to pieces!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for reading!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful words. Thank you so much for sharing. You're definitely not last today. Way to go!
ReplyDeleteSarah, your words are an encouraging well spring, I am grateful that you continue to write. Have a blessed weekend. Tara.
ReplyDeleteThank you Tara, that is my deepest hope. Blessings to you!
ReplyDeleteI appreciate that Debi! Thanks for reading.
ReplyDeleteSarah, I just love to see how you're growing in Him with each day and each post! You inspire and lift up, you make me laugh and you bring me joy! You will never be last for me :) Love you!
ReplyDeleteThank you Vanessa! You have brightened my life and I am blessed by our friendship. Love you too!!
ReplyDeleteSarah, I love this. I've been learning lately that God's love is enough. It's not an easy lesson, but an important one.
ReplyDeleteI 'm (sort of) dealing with the issue of people judging me without giving me the chance to explain myself. Such a frustrating thing.
ReplyDeleteI have been there too. People are very quick to make a blanket judgement without knowing the whole story. It is very frustrating!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much Hannah!!
ReplyDeleteOh I love this! The power of our own story is that it is ours and His and no one else can tell it! I love that you are writing it down and sharing it out loud... and trusting that He will lead and guide and the ones who need it most will find it! We are never last on His list... somehow, we're all His favorites!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful...you speak for so many.
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ReplyDeleteYou are wise, dear friend, Blogging opens the heart and allows so much healing!
Blessings XX
Mia
Thank you Mia! I always love when you visit.
ReplyDeleteThank you for reading Nannette!
ReplyDeleteYes Karrilee, our own words are powerful enough. So thankful we ALL are His favorites. Thank you for reading!
ReplyDeleteI think you wrote this just for me today. : ) So much of what you said resonated with my spirit. Thanks for being real in the sharing!
ReplyDelete"I'll be forever on the list of the One who has taken me down every road, caught every tear and heard every laugh. And because of that I will never be last." Beautiful words...and words I really needed to hear today. Thanks, Sarah!
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad to speak for your heart Holly. You've been on my mind this week. Please email me with updates about your potential endeavors!!
ReplyDeleteYou are most welcome Amy. Sometimes I fear my honesty is too much but I continue to write what's placed in front of me. Thank you for reading!
ReplyDeleteLovely, as always, sweet Sarah! In my busyness of late, I've been missing you!
ReplyDeleteI have noticed your absence and am thinking of you. Hope life isn't too overwhelming right now!
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